I have read:
"Parents attach to their children through core-level dreams, fantasies, illusions and projections into the future. Disability dashes these cherished dreams. The impairment, not the child, shatters the fundemental, heart-felt yearning. Parents of impaired children grieve for the loss of these dreams.
Recovering from such a loss depends on one's ability to seperate from the lost dream, and to generate new, more attainable dreams. Parents must face a challenging task - they must raise the child they have, while letting go of the child they dreamed of. They must go on with their lives and generate new dreams.
To do this, the parents must grieve. Sometimes the way broken parents of broken children get through this is to step into the dark and lose their minds, to cry hard, and just stop being brave little soldiers for a while."
This is how I felt in 2008. I was just trying to survive.
But now it's 2009 - and I am going to resolve to move beyond these feelings.
My 2009 (Suzy) Resolutions -
1. LIVE for today, and stop worrying about how Suzy might be in the future.
2. LOVE her wholly and unconditionally for who she is RIGHT NOW!
3. LAUGH and enjoy the family, and appreciate all of the wonderful blessings that we have.
4. DREAM BIG!!!!!!
Thank you to everyone who has supported and loved us in 2008. We made it through the toughest year of our lives, and we couldn't have done it without YOU! I am SO grateful that '08 is over, and I am excited to see how wonderful '09 is going to be.